The secret

She's harbored a deep, dark secret,
for almost fifty years;
and as she relives and remembers,
her eyes begin to tear.

The secret that she's been hiding,
to this day is hidden away;
this eighty year old woman,
who begins to earnestly pray.

She asks God to forgive her, though
His presence was always there;
yet she felt the need to tell someone,
what she could no longer bare.

For many years ago, in a different
life it seemed;
she killed her daughter, who was only
four, and the body was never retrieved.

She re-plays in her head, everyday
since the nightmare began;
the reasons why she killed her daughter,
the toddler who's name was Sam.

Most people would never have believed
her, nor would they have accepted her
excuse;
for they weren't there each and every
night, when her Husband would inflict his
abuse.

Sam's Mother watched in horror, as her
daughter was severely beaten;
then he turned on his wife as the
child huddled, alone in the corner
bleeding.

The Mother tried several times, to
flee from this sick man;
but he'd always say, "If you ever leave,
I'll find you, understand"?

She lived in fear and poverty, for money
she never had;
she reported him to the authorities,
but they lent no helping hand.

She made a decision one day, to save
her daughter's life;
she could no longer bare to watch the
beatings, that cut her like a knife.

Thus early one summer evening, she
put her daughter to bed;
she kissed her good night lovingly,
for by morning Sam would be dead.

She put Arsenic in Sam's dinner, along
with her many tears;
and she whispered to herself softly,
"Soon you'll have nothing to fear".

When morning finally arrived, she
found her daughter dead;
she cried tears of sorrow and pain,
as she layed beside Sam on the bed.

Then she wrapped the body in a blanket,
and put it in her truck;
she drove far away to a river, and
cried as the body sunk.

She was asked quite often where Sam was,
"She's visiting my Aunt";
and soon everyone forgot about, the
child who had no chance.

Knowing that God had forgiven her, this
woman found great relief;
for she confessed to Him what she had
done, and at last she found great peace.