Holding on for too long.

Ive been holding on.
Holding on for so long.
Holding something that was gone.
I guess holding on was wrong.

I held on to our love.
I felt its heart.
Or maybe it was my love.
Maybe thats what tore us apart.

There was something in the way.
Some omnipotent force.
But it just hit me today.
And this pain has no remorse.

I cant feel my heart.
I'm not even sure its still there.
This was a good start.
Because the next thing I lost was air.

I gasped for each breath.
Undoubtedly knowing eventually it would end.
Our love would meet its death.
The same love that was so easy to apprehend.

But I guess what is easily gained.
In return is easily lost.
The pain has yet to be sustained.
It is still at a great cost.

I'm sorry for what I did.
I didn't stop and think.
Then again I'm just a kid.
And you know what happens when I drink.

I know we cant be together.
Or at least you say thats true.
Even if we aren't together.
I will always love you....

(c) JP 2006