It's hard to say sorry

I'm in love with a guy
We live 1000 miles away,
Whenever he comes on line
I have no idea what to say
I want to tell him I'm sorry
For all the things I've never said
But I can't seem to find the words
that were once in my head
When I gather the words
and open my mouth to speak
my fear still holds me back
and i feel a little weak
Afraid of rejection
or that he won't understand
What I'm asking of him when my heart's in my hand.

Just the thought of him speaking to her
makes me feel a little scared
It makes e feel inferior to her
Then my eyes become teared.
Then i break down
I can't take the pain ,
my tears know no bounds
and fall freely like the rain.
And my words are lost again
and i cant find my way
and i sit there praying
that somehow I'd get through today .
Then my wounds are ripped open
they can never find time to heal
Because the scars on my heart
are being picked apart and peeled
But i dont feel that pain
Since its covered up by fear
That maybe to you in just some girl
and really you just dont care
And i wait for you to speak to me first
But you never really do
And tears cover my eyes again
Because I'm officially missing you .

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