I don't understand
I feel alone and scared
I feel that I walk on glass every where I go
There is no trust on his part
He runs to other girls when there is a problem
God knows what he does
I feel controlled,
I feel I have a leash on me, and it gets tighter and tighter
I can't make my own decisions
I hate when he is mad
I hate when he calls me names and belittles me
I feel like dirt
I feel that I don't amount to anything
I wish I had more hugs and kisses
I wish I had all the trust in the world for him
I wish that he loved me like I love him
Does he love me or am I just a thing that he must control
Will he dump me if I try to break out of being controlled?
I will never cheat on him, be unfaithful to him
I love him too much and he is my world
I hate people that cheat
Yet I give him chance after chance
I don't want to lose him
I love to be around him
I love his body and his mind
He is one in a million
Why can't he treat me with respect and dignity?
I respect him and his decisions
Why can't he respect my wishes and decisions?
Why do I feel I have to fight for him?
Does he fight for me?
Does he talk good about me to others?
I talk good about him, everywhere I go everyone knows who I love
They know how much I love him
They know that I want no one in this world but him
Does the people he talks to know that?
Why does he lead girls on when he is with me?
Do I not make him feel good?
Can I show him more love then the all I have already given?
Do I make him feel sexy?
He is sexy, very sexy?
I try to look good for him and he thinks that I am trying to attract someone else.
All I care for in this world is him
I'll give him everything
I'll leave nothing out
I just don't understand things
