I promised myself

I promised myself...when it's over, I'd laugh at the memories. But here i am without a smile in sight. I promised myself that i would call you, just to see if you were Kay, but here i am, and i can't even dial your number CZ i know that you aren't there. I promised myself, that when it was over, i would not shed a tear, but here i am, shirt almost soaked. I promised myself i would let you go gracefully, but here i am, hating myself for having to know that you left. I promised myself that when it was over, i wouldn't look back. But here i am, unable to walk forward. I promised myself i would say goodbye for now. But here i am, still saying i love you and i miss you....