Just another sad love poem

You make me feel like.. I can't even explain

Like I found something amazing

Light, happy, loved

You make me feel like I mean something to you

Like I'm special......

Which is really interesting because,

You hurt me so much

with everything that you do

every word that comes from your mouth

every smile on your face when you see me

every lie you tell me

every time we touch

every look in your eyes

You make me feel pain like I've never felt

Like I'm just another girl on the side

Like I'm second or maybe even less

One out of who knows how many.....

But what hurts the most

Is that I like you so much

I wanna be with you

And I care about you

Even though I don't want to

I hate that I like you

I hate that I even met you

And I hate that I think about you

when I wake up, and before I go to sleep

I hate that I'm friends with you

And that we ever even met

Because things would be so much simpler for me

I hate that I even know who you are

I hate that I feel so stupid for liking you

And that I can't control how I feel

No matter how hard I try

I hate that I know just how bad you are

But I still like you anyway

I hate that you make feel like.... I can't even explain

And I hate that I wanna be with you all the time

But what I hate the most is that........

You aren't now, an you probably never will be

mine