I cant take this life

I hate this life that i cant stand
why do i walk on this stupid land
hard decisions to always make
living lies i can no longer take

i always hurt them when they never hurt me
my dead body they will soon see
i hurt the two people i love the most
this just makes me feel so gross

i have no idea what to do
why do i always have to hurt you two
i wish i never got into this
why cant life just be a bliss

every night i cry myself to sleep
as i push the knife down real deep
just slam me on the head with a fu(king bat
and then hide me inside a sack

do whatever the fu(k you want
rape me and kill me,more memories to haunt
i don't care what happens to me anymore
just open up death's door

life is hard anyways
so why cant darkness consume the day
now watch as i cry,
feel my soul slip as i slowly commit suicide