What It Is Now

Pain builds up within me, i dance away my fury
frustrated by you, my face i shall bury

you make me so mad, i hide away my rage
life is so horrible, when I'm locked in this cage

you hurt me so, you life taker
can't you tell I'm a smile faker

love is not like anything, especially a knife
love is exactly like a knife when I'm living this life

the problem is, you never see
see my anger, obviously you don't know me

maybe right now, the feeling is gone
i can't go on like this, feeling like a con

hoping,praying,wishing you don't come
when I'm with you, i feel hurt and numb

thats not me, the girl you see
you see everything, i pretend to be

sick of hiding, hiding away my tears
finally i will face up to my fears

fear of being without you
it could be wrong, but it's something i have to do

maybe you'll finally see
the frustration and pain you've been bringing me

maybe you'll finally see through the smile
everyone else has seen it for awhile

time will tell, if we could make
maybe this is all just a huge mistake

maybe I'm wrong, this is just how i feel
the feelings i once felt, somehow don't feel real

so for now, i think its right
because I'm sick of this fight