Listen to your Mind...or Heart?

I'm tired of smiling so my frown won't show
I just wanna scream and let everything go
I'm tired of laughing to hide my cries
Everytime I see you a new part of me dies
I'm sick of missing you and wanting you back
I'm sick from this pain of the you that I lack
I loved you I love you I know that I do
But it seems that this time your feelings weren't true
I don't wanna hold you cuz this I know
If I hold you tonight,tomorrow you'll go
I don't wanna lose you but you're already lost
I don't wanna pay this high of a cost
I'm so sick and tired of being just okay
I want to be truly happy someday
You were the one that could always make me smile
You gave me true happiness but just for a while
And now that you're gone the feeling I feel
Is a feeling of sadness, but it's so desperatley real
If you came back, you'd bring back my light
You'd brighten my day,and you'd put a glow in the night
Loving what's been lost is not a crime
It just hurts like hell when it's a waste of time
I wanna get over you I wanna be strong
But the right in my mind,in my heart is all wrong
If I listened to what my mind said today
Then these feelings for you would be thrown away
But since I can't help but listen to my heart
It's ripping and bleeding, and falling apart