Why did this happen?

You went away last year
left me here to cry
i have just one question
please just tell me why?

you said i would be fine
but every things not right
you said id make it threw
the lonely winter nights

but without you i cant be
the person i really am
i just want you here
so i don't have to play pretend

that you died from drugs
you were sent to a place thats bad
for doing something stupid
when you were really mad

but i know that didn't happen
the lies i know true from false
everyone keeps saying
that this is all my fault

but you didn't kill me
i put this on myself
and i need to know something
how you really felt

did you really love me
or was it one big lie
but now it is to late
time to say goodbye

and that is the letter that she wrote
it sat beside her head
as he read it out loud
these last words he said...

i loved you to
and now your gone
what do i do
i possibly cant go on
i know this is my fault
i did this to you
i have to pay for my sins
i will be with you
and tell you how i feel
see you again up there
hopefully you will forgive me
even though your life i did not spare

he used the knife
that she used
he took his life
then he knew
that he would see her again
the only way
see her in heaven
another day