I was actually myself around you, I'm not normally myself around guys i like. you were only my 2nd time. you played me so well. me and my friend never saw it coming. you got what you wanted from me. i was just another girl you kissed. it meant nothing to you but meant everything to me. i still actually felt something when i kissed you, i still liked you so much. then you told me you were just being pushed to do stuff with me and was stupid for doing it. we got home from Florida, i went to my basement and took my sharp object then i started up...once again. i don't like doing it but it makes me stop thinking of how much my life sucks without you. i shouldn't let you do this to me but its kind of late, Ive already don't it. i try to stop, but i think I'm addicted, like i was to you. i need to stop and i want to, but i just don't know if i can. i should just enjoy my left and let things happen. i liked you so much i thought we had something but i was totally wrong. you just did stuff with me cause thats who you are.
