Broken hearted part 1

I can't write this poem cause I don't know where to start,
maybe I start with how bad you broke my heart.
You broke me down and cause me so much pain,
you the only reason why some of my thought drive me in Sane.
I love you, I need you, I wanna hug you,
but I'm not afraid to leave you.
because I'm tired of hurting and not knowing what to do,
I'm tired of different guys poppin up in my head when i lay down with you.
I'm tired of thinking you cheating and me checking your phone,
I'm tired of people spending a night and thinking stuff like y'all alone.
I'm tired of wondering whose calling you and who you talking to,
I'm tired of not being able to just hold you.
cause I'm afraid my thoughts will escape and chase into your mind,
and if it get into your you might do it again sometime.
See it's bad you hurt me before and I'm scared you might do it again.
But can you prove to me you want to be and remain my best friend a.k.a my boyfriend.
cause boyfriends come a dime a dozen but what are you untitled to,
and if you break my heart again it could never be commended, not even by you.
So can you please be careful and can you be kind,
because I'll treat your heart just how you treat mine.