I sit here staring blankly at this buzzing computer screen.
Trying to look busy.
Quietly through my headphones i listen to songs of us.
Trying to hold back the tears, so none knows how hurt I'm really feeling.
They don't like you, i feel like they don't care how I'm feeling.
I'm expected to go on like normal after a year and a half.
I never imagined i would feel like this.
I used to imagine the lazy Sunday mornings wrapped up in the bed covers, in comes running our beautiful little girl with flaxen hair, jumping under the covers, as we all read the morning paper.
Even as I write this, i quickly flick between web pages, for just a few seconds, at that picture of us, me in your arms, where i always felt so safe.
But its over now, its all because of me, i have no explanation for, and neither do you.
But i guess maybe love doesn't deserve explanation.............
