I am standing here while my thoughts are over a million miles away
I feel so alive, this time my thoughts tell me, I must be dead, and I must ask myself did I ever fit in?
Waiting for a light that never shines on me, where did I lose touch of reality?
I must not know the truth, why? You left me so many years ago; you must have been using me.
I could not fill your dreams; I could not bring back the loss of the past
I never did those things to you and still you made me feel everything was my fault
I felt I must let go, I did and you disappeared, like all the times before
I could not give or ask of you anymore
You to me were a bird in a gilded cage, while I could never be the partner of your heart
I was never there, was never there, because you left me alone when I gave you gold
Hurt too badly, to reopen my heart, you were so cold; I was just hanging on to pieces of my insecure trust
Waiting for you to leave waiting for the pain of you repeatedly.
I could not give all of me to a heart that seem to sweep me away like dust under a rug
No longer will I listen to crying hearts; no longer will I be there for self-abuse, at the hand of love
All you could show me was to run, run when I wanted to know, why you turned so cold, sly so butterfly, flamingo
You never gave to me you only barrowed, what you could not take away with you
Giving me pain, twisting me to break again, and again
Through you they did take, through you, they did break much more than just our hearts, what might have been, through you, illusions were wrought.
