Lost

Staring out of my window
I will wait...
But not forever...
I can't make it on my own.
I'm loosing my face.
My final breath is going.
They don't understand me.
We live such fragile lives...
Thinking...
Why did God give us feelings?
To punish us?
To make us learn?
I have begged you forgiveness...
Do I love you?
The pain
Mysterious
Not moving onward
Not passing
Where was it before i felt it?
Why isn't he here?
Does he hate me?
What did I do wrong.
I need him for me to live...
Help...