Just found out

Tears drip down, i thought i wanted to die
But as i found out today, i was barely alive
In a couple years from now, i will be dead as can be
My liver is failing, how couldnt i see?
My hands feel shaky, these are my last years, my last months, and my last days
I feel so shocked, and i am no longer brave
Why does it have to be me, that is going to end up in the grave?
I wanted to live, finally i saw
Life was a painted picture that i was about to draw
Instead of happy-ever-after
I will be gone
I cant choose this time, so i live my days strong
But break at the signs that soon i will be gone

THIS IS A TRUE POEM, I JUST FOUND OUT I WAS GOING TO DIE. I WANTED TO COMMIT SUICINDE, BUT THEN A LIL WHILE AGO A DECIDED I WANT TO LIVE, I JUST FOUND OUT I COULDNT, I FEEL SO UPSET!