Sadness to happines

Everyday i would cut my wrist
Everyday i held out my hand in a form of a fist
Everyday I sat there crying
Everday i wished i was dying

Now Im 4 mo. pregnant filled with joy
Waiting to know if its a girl or boy
Im with the father to my baby
No longer do i ever feel lonely

Waiting for dat special day
Waiting for the love to finally stay
So many tyms was it gone
Now those days are forever done

Dat feeling of loneliness
Dat feeling of emptiness
Now full of excitement and tears
Not knowin if my kid will have da same fears

I dont wanna see him/her suffer
I just want him/her to grow tougher
I dont want to see that pain again
I just want all of this pain and sadness to end

My baby will enter a world full of love..................
The love dat I never felt from my parents................