Why?

Why cant u help me forget this pain,
It plays in my mind again and again.

Why did u do this why didn't u care,
But I guess this is why they say life isn't fair.

I new it was getting worse, every time you lied,
I'm glad u don't know about every time I cried.

In a way I wish we were together, In a way I wish we weren't,
I cant help but think there's something I should have learnt.

But I really need to know what's going though your head,
I think about u in different ways each time I go to bed.

Some times I think I love you, sometimes I think I don't,
I wish you would just say something, but I know you wont.

I thought I was over you, but now I'm not so sure,
I really wish that suicide wasn't the only cure.

I'm not going to do anything silly over a worthless boy,
But I wish you would just tell me I wasn't a little toy.

I cant help but think there's still a chance for us,
But it wasn't just my heart you broke, it was the trust.

I want you to know how I feel inside,
But the thought of other people involved, makes me want to hide.

What I really want to say is please tell me why,
So I can wipe my tears and finally say goodbye.