Ghosts of lovers past

My True Love you once were.
My 16th birthday I saw you there,
I could not help but look and stare.
Your face full of beauty, your eyes amazing,
I could feel myself falling, but still carried on gazing.

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You made me laugh, you made me smile,
Its only a shame our love lasted a while.
Endless times we would go out,
End up traveling round and about.
I would go out all day, just to please you,
Spend all my time freezing, my skin turned blue.
I went round your house; we'd have a good time,
Be naughty, share laughter, as if it was crime.
Days out together I enjoyed the most,
I still feel your love round me as if its a ghost.

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You held my hand, you made me cry,
Times I felt unnoticed, but I was too shy.
Your love was extreme; its this I miss,
But most of all our first kiss.

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The present you gave me touched my heart,
But when you told me didn't love me, my heart could not start.

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I cant explain how my heart felt so broken,
And I will never forget the first words, which were spoken.
The way you made me feel,
Never realized it would be such a big deal.
Special words you said to me,
You showed me things I'd never dream I'd see.
Thinking of you none stop, as if I were addicted,
But we moved further apart, our love just drifted.

But I'd stay up and talk to you for hours and hours,
As if I was trapped under your special powers.

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Then other girls made me feel overcrowded and chocked,
So many tears I've cried I'm practically soaked.
But my place began to feel as if it was being overtaken,
But was it all in my head, was I mistaken?

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The tears began to over take the smiles,
I hadn't felt that special ness in such a long while.
It was as if she was the better one,
As that magic you felt for me is now gone.

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For she now made you smile, brought happiness to your life,
While this was going threw my heart, stabbing like a knife.
As if I meant nothing no more,
Making my heart ever so soar.

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All the love is now given to her,
And once again I'm forced to stand there and stare.
I promised not to let your love slip through my fingers,
I want to keep your friendship so something still lingers.
I always said I would lose you, so scared of this,
But all the time I spent with you, was just pure bliss.

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But she's making it too hard, its as if you don't care,
I can now only just catch you in your wide-open glare.
We talk some more, but things get so dead,
As if every thing's been said.

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All the silly things I've done, I've said to make you laugh,
But all you do is turn away, and simply say I'm daft.
All the times I've wished that I could be "the one",
But now it feels its over, my times completely done.
I loved all your things, especially the cuddles,
Even watching you at rugby in your big manly huddles.
But you can no longer see me in the crowd, as she shines through,
I really want you back; wish there was something I could do.
But your friendship I will treasure forever and ever
No matter what we will endeavor.

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The day your love went for me, I shall never forget
Sitting on your lap, how I wish for that back.
The song you wrote for her, I found that so cute,
But every time I see her, I just want to shoot.
I know we didn't quite make it, I always thought we would,
I'm loving you still, if only you could.
I hate feeling this way; I hate myself for loving you,
I only wish you could return, you love me to.
I loved what I felt for you, but now its out of sight,
I remember when I first felt for you, that dark December night

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Pain you caused me made me feel dead,
But times of anger, made me see red.
I know you love her, I'm glad your happy,
I want love in my life, wish it were snappy.
But after all of this, were we meant to be?
I guess all we can do is sit back and see...