Psyche

I keep pretending you´re mine,
I keep imagining you were here,
I keep thinking of you,
I keep thinking of us,
I keep hoping you´d like me when we met.

What am I!? Stupid? I know it will never come true.
I know I´m just pretending,
I know it´s all in my imagination, but still, I keep imagining.
Why do I keep thinking that the impossible is possible?

Stupid, that is what I am, although, not only stupid
- I´m a complete psycho,
a maniac.
To think that I could ever have you,
I must be mentally disturbed,
mentally sick
As the madman I am,
the only thing I deserve,
is to be put in a madhouse.

And there,
There, I'd punish myself for even having thought about you.
And then,
Then I would do it again,
think of her, of us, how it would´ve been
If I was someone else, but no

No,
I don´t even deserve her.. and she,
she deserves someone better,
someone that could compare to her beauty,
someone that doesn´t think twice, yet still is smart.
Someone more kind than me,
someone that could reward her with the love she deserves.
Someone that is simply better than me.

Oh. I hate myself. I would give anything
to become that better person that she deserves
anything..
anything!!!

I hate this, I hate that it will always stay a dream
a dream that will never come real
a dream that is dreamed all day long
a dream that I love, yet hate so freaking much
a dream that will tear the few pieces of me
that a are left to nothing

Nothing! Nothing..

So there..
Take my advice,
and don´t ever think twice if you really love somebody.

I did that mistake.

((Yeah, could've corrected/edited alot, but I cant and couldn't bother to -
please comment though.

this is my first one ever))

It turned out fine!