What the hell is wrong with me

I told her i was sorry with all my heart and all my love but she said its not enough i said but love is she told me no its not i sit her and think to my self what just could be enough for here to see i am really sorry so i though and i though to my self so i went to here and told once again i was so so sorry from the bottom of my heart but she said its just not enough so i told OK if sorry and my love is not enough the my life will take its place so when i am gone she will hurt no more for what i did how stupid i was to do something like that to her but when i am dead i will feel a lot batter and be in a batter place