If only

If only you knew how much you mean to me...
If only you knew how much I love you...
If only you really knew why it took me so long to love you...
If only you knew how much you're hurting me...
If only if only that time would come, when you would be happy and full of joy...
If only it could be like before you where depressed and mad...
If only you would let me help you through all this crap, but you wont let me, because all I am is something that makes you sad when around...
If only I knew why...
if only you knew why...
Now without me i hear your happy, but without you my life is hell, when you don't want to see me or talk to me, not even an " I love you"...
You mean everything to me and i will do anything you you, thats why im doing as you said. Leaving you alone, so you will be happy as before, even when its tearing me apart and killing me inside.
I will love you till the second I die,and will wait till the ends of time, just to see your smiling face.
I love you and forever will.