Letting Go Of My Sanity

I get a phone call, I answer the hello

she asks me what's up but she already knows

she knows I am down and depressed

I'll tell her everything, I might as well confess

I let her know how this guy never wanted me

How stupid I was to believe he would be

The one, the one I wanted forever

But I was in denial which I said I would never

I let a man take a hold of me inside

When I was for sure I was right I would just hide

I acted like I didn't have much of a care

But I got to nervous to show it all I would do is stare

I felt so stupid sand so empty

But how I felt away from him I had plenty

He is taken

My heart is breakin'

Letting him go is like letting go of my sanity

But I did because I couldn't do anything but use profanity

I still want him till this day and time

But now I know he'll never be mine

I feel so stupid all he wanted was one thing

Its weird but I do now, so let me sing

I'll stay in denial get away from it all

Or my heart will break like a brick to the wall

Once again I feel all alone

But if I'm with someone else, I hang up the phone