"Ive lost so much, and gained so many problems" this line is very powerful...i can relate to it completly...another great poem..5/5

Wow, that was a very expressive poem and your skills in writing it amazed me. You sound like your in trouble, and that saddens me. If I could come pick you up and take you away for I while to a bit of safety and sanity (not in any wrong way) then I would, but I think I am too far away. It is good that you are venting your feelings and it is good that:

"I want to try and sort this crap and find some answers, I wanna be able to cry without being afraid of someone seeing, Its been bottled up for so long now, and it needs to come out, I just want to Cry and scream and curse and pout."

because that means that you are willing to work to make things okay, and that is a great quality to have. Actually from you profile I would assume you are still in school, so I would suggest that you go meet with your guidance counselor. She might be just the right person to vent you feelings to, help you understand why you are feeling them and then help you figure out what to do about it to help you feel better. She might be the person to listen that you need. I don't know much about your family life, and you seem to me worried about it too, but if there is someone in your family that you feel comfortable talking to then do that too. It is health and good to find a way to express yourself well, and to express youself in the right ways. I hope I was helpful, and I send you the biggest hug in the world.

-Tainted

WOW...that was good lauren...impressive(i dont know if i spelled that right or now :D)

It's me DAniel and this is awsome its proll better than mine so keep it up .... also look at my love poemk cya