Behind closed doors

Behind closed doors,
my pain takes place,
tears are falling,
from my face.

i pick up the knife,
and do the deed,
nothing left to do,
but watch myself bleed.

mommy come in,
and she starts to cry,
she holds my hand,
as i slowly die.

my eyelids are heavy,
i know whats to come,
I've breathed my last breath,
my life is done.

now I'm in heaven,
watching over you,
I'm your guardian angle,
if only you knew.

if you knew i had loved you ,
i might not have cried,
if you loved me back,
i might not have died.

i wish i was there,
so that you good see,
just how much pain,
you really caused me.