Real Me

Memories of the summer I fell in love surround me,
Back together again but how long will we be?
He makes my heart beat so fast inside my chest,
When it comes to making me smile he's the best.
But what if he knew the real me?
The one that I don't let anyone see.
The girl who hides behind smiling eyes,
The girl who tells everyone so many lies.
I promised I'd never lie to him,
But how can I tell him everyday I sin?
He wouldn't understand the things I do,
Of my daily fears I wish he knew.
This lying is slowly tearing me apart,
I love him so much, gave him my heart.
Couldn't handle losing him, don't want to cry,
But soon he will begin to wonder why.
Why I never want to eat,
Why inside my head I retreat.
Why I try to block him out,
I just can't tell him what this is about.
This battle I'm fighting within,
Somehow I know that it is a sin.
But this is my life, a part of me,
Without this I just wouldn't be.
Want to show him the real me,
When the time's right, my true sins he'll see.