I'm Addicted.

I sit paralyzed against the wall.
As you fill my veins,
With a deadly poison,
The poison of love.

I crave the poison,
And at the same time, despise it.
How dare I let you in,
And leave my self open to possible disaster.

Slowly but surely I take you in.
You become a drug more than a poison.
I need you and want you.
I'm addicted.

My thoughts consist of you
And the world around me doesn't exist.
I become careless in my ways.
And why? Because I'm gone.
Far gone.

My strength is gone.
One hurtful word from you
And my world comes crashing down.
Into a dreadful mess.
A mess that I am unable to take care of.

To have let myself go like this
Leads me thinking back as to why.
And it is then that I remember
I am addicted.