"Love" is a trap

Im so tired of being here
Depressed that u might show up near
Im scared that you might not leave
These wounds wont heal
Not even time will deal
When you cryed i would wipe away all of your tears in your eyes
But all you did was make it worse
Kill me through your words
Now your gone
And i cant tell myself
Its hard to even think
Let alone blink without a tear fallign
When i think back when it was all good
I remember you would leave me all the time
Alone and empty through those years
So when I am gone
Try and figure out why
You could of helped
If you had tried
And when i leave
Dont be a tease
You know i still love you
And always will
I guess i never could figure that out
But it isnt really love
Its just something that people feel like when u get drunk
And i want out
Nothing can erase the pain you gave me
But its also my fault
For all my fears
So here i go
Gone like the wind
Never mind me, i was never here
I never thought it would end this way
But this is how i want it to be
So treat her like you didnt treat me
I know i loved you, but you always hated me