I do, but i dont

I never thought it would be you.
I wont say Ive completely fallen for you,
But Im getting there.
Please dont think of this as bad.
I mean yes I do Love YOU!
Dont think wrongly of that,
I just still need time to think.
I wont leave you and
hope I will never have to.
Bit Im still trying to figure things out.
I hope you can understand.
Im telling you this because
I thought you would.
Your the only one I trust enough
to actually tell this to.
I would be afraid to tell someone else
because who knows what they would think.
I just dont know if I should tell,
what it is Im struck on.
I would be scared youd get upset, or
think badly of me.
I think its stupid
So I tuck it away in my mind.
But it comes out every once in a while.
Its not another, so please dont think of that.
Ill just say it already.
This has been long enough as it is.
Im Afraid To Fall In Love!
I feel like I could cry,
when I think of it that way.
I try to find ways to get the feelings to go
but no matter what i do it hits me like That.
*tears up*
You make me so happy
Being with you
*they fall upon the paper*
Knowing your there for me
My Best friend back in my life
And more than I thought he could be.
*wipes face*
Im sorry Im like this
but I guess its just me.
I just had to let you know,
And this was the best way i could think of.

This is pretty long,
a bit longer than I expected.
So Ill let you go.

I DO LOVE YOU!!!
Melissa Kitchen
C\'ya Later, XOXOXO

~)< written October 7th, 2005... for Jeremy Edmund Alan Taylor>(~