What you said

You sent me an e-card that talked about our first month, so I replied with this...

Hey!!!
How r u? I'm fine, still have a smile on my face from Six Flags!
I received you E-card just now and I started to cry! I read it with tears rolling down my cheeks, but they were good tears (don't worry). You may have wondered why on the last day of school when I found out what you wrote in my yearbook, I didn't say anything. Well, it's because (oh gosh here comes the tears again) I have been through a lot of things in my life that made me cautious about love and friendship, and I wasn't ready for what you said. But being with you has convinced me that, well, I do love you, and I'm ready to take that chance of being hurt, so I can be with you and I can feel that I'm the one that belongs in your arms. Yeah, I know this is pretty sappy but It's how I feel.
I'm excited about this summer and hope to see you a lot more. we may not be able to do things, just us, because of my mom, but being with you at all would be just fine with me. Call me anytime you'd like, I love talking to you (even if there's just silence on the phone).

Buh-Bye ~I love you~
~Jerbear~

so you said...

My JerBear!!!

Well you dont need to worry, I would never hurt you. I now a lot of people say "I love you" and donâ??t actually mean it, well when I say it, I mean it. I knew the day I couldnt stop thinking of you. Which now is everyday. Your message wasnt sappy, this will be though, when I'm sad and your not there all I do is look at the pictures I have of you (and me) on my phone and I just start to smile and laugh. Thinking of it, it is a hard thing to say, just for the meaning of three little words. I had thought it through before I wrote that in your yearbook, "Do I TRULY love her" and the only answer that felt right when I thought of it was, YESSS (and not a normal yes either). And I just wanted to tell you and thats why I wrote it. I thought a cool way to do it would be in Chinese, so you had awhile to think of what it said before you knew, let it sink in. I love talking on the phone with you too, it truly brightens and gives hope to my day. So I can truly say now, I love you Jerri. Wow this is weird, I just went back to read my message and I started to tear up. So I better stop writing now. Buh~Buy I love you

So a few days later after a party we both went to you e-mailed me this...

Hey my Jerbear,
I had soo much fun at the party. I love just hanging out w/ u, that ice cream was good. ya so its too bad I couldnt get there when u where still swimming. I would have had a good time laughing at u playing chicken. too bad, ohh well soo I dont really have much to say.
ok I decided something, I love ur lips. there so smooth and the way u push them against mine makes me feel like I never want to leave your side. so again I made a decision to kiss u more. not too much cause thats how relationships get ruined. and well we both no that I love u too much to let our relationship end. I dont know if u feel the same way, all I know is that I do truly LOVE YOU. ok soo im kinda throwing this at u and im sorry its just I needed to tell u how I feel about you. and I really dont know what it is about you that drives me to feel this way, but I like it. from your complete beauty, to the way when u talk it sounds like a secret in my ear.
this message isnt long but I think it gets the message across and every second of my day that I dont spend with you, I spend thinking about you. and every second I do spend with you it feels as if im a complete person for the first time. it probably sounds like im forcing this and trying to rush things but im not. it just how I feel and its ok if you dont feel the same yet, I can wait. I just wanted you 2 know.

Buh-Bye and just always remember, I LOVE YOU.

so I replied with this...

Hey Brandon!!!
How r u? I'm great! I just read your messege, and I can tell you I haven't been that in happy in well... I don't know when! It brought the BIGGEST smile to my face! everything you said was true and I agree, we do need to kiss more, when we see eachother when we leave and maybe some in the middle.
You say you love my lips and I say that I love the way you hold me, the way you wrap your arms around my waist, and make me feel warm and safe, nothing to fear. you hold me like I'm a doll, loose enough so I'm not squished, but tight enough to not slip through your hands. I love how you're taller that me but not to tall, how you're romantic but not overly dramatic. and how we are so open with eachother, that we can talk about pretty much anything. Everytime I know I'm gonna see you I get really excited and can't wait to see your face or feel your hand laced with mine.
Everytime I am with you, I get so happy that the only thing I can focus on is you, It's just you and me and all of my senses are overwelmed by you, I just stare into your eyes, and say to myself, " I'm so lucky, it's gonna catch up to me soon or later, but for now live like there's no tomorrow". When we part I don't want it to happen, I feel so empty, all of a suden you aren't there to smile back at me when I smile at you and look into your deep eyes, my hand feels so bare and lonely that I have to lace my own hands together just to ease away the thoughts of your hand not being there. I think of you ALL OF THE TIME!!! I just mope around thinking about the last time I saw you, and try to play the whole thing in my mind, just to feel your touch and see your face one more time before I go to sleep.
You have made an impretion on me phsycally, I am more excited and happy throughout the day, I have more energy, and more reasons to do cirtain things, I feel better. You have also made an impretion on me mentally as well, because of you I can concintrate on things better and I had 3 consecutive dreams with you in them! It takes me a really long time to dream about someone I know, and you made it in, remarkably fast. I say it is all because of the work of love, we are honest and really care. No one has ever made me more happy.
I want to see you again, maybe we can do something on friday!? miss you much already, geez, I just looked at the clock, I took me an hour and a half to write this! oh well, it was worth it. Call me ANYTIME you want, in the day, at night, in the morning, I don't care I will be up at anytime just to hear your voice, I'm just gonna be at home all day by myself doing absolutly nothing, so if you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I check my e-mail at least 50 times a day, so you can always get a hold of me via e-mail. ttyl!!!
~I love you like...well...chocolate~ hope toeatsee you soon! jk lol
~YOUR Jerbear~ ; )

So please tell me, do you think it is real love?