My hope

I hope eventually you can forgive me for all the things i have done
for hurting you for hurting me for hurting everyone

i cannot ask you to love me for who i am today
i am insecure and hurting and i don't know what to say

it is so hard for me to tell you what i need to say to you
to let you know what has led to this and all the things Ive been through

i don't want to use excuses or give reasons for what i have done
i just need you to know how special you are and that you're my special one

but i need to mend myself in so many ways that is true
before i can tell you again how much i truly do love you

i have to accept you may never think of me in that way again
but i just wish you to be happy as you were when we began

so please don't doubt my love cos of how i have behaved
it is you that i want and you that i love and you that i have craved

but if you only give me friendship then how lucky i will be
to know that after all i have done you would spend some time with me

i so know that after everything i still need to meet with you
to see see if the connection we have is real and even if it is true

but i wont meet you if i am not healed cos i want you to meet me
so the person that will be facing you will be the real me that you see!