You called called me

You call me and ask how i am doing i lie and say fine. i cant bring my self to tell you thats a lie, that every night i sit and cry, i cry for you and the love i lost. i lost your love because i thought i couldn't care. i lost your love because i thought you'd never be there. you call me and ask how i do it. how i can sit there and push the ones i love away like i never loved at all. i lie once again and say because i never loved. i once again cant bring my self to tell you thats a lie to. that I'm scared to love I'm scared to hold on to what i have for love in my eyes is just a word. you call me and tell me you still love me, i lie and say well i don't love you. i cant bring myself to tell you how bad i wanted to hear that. how much i cry for what i did to you. i wish i could tell you i loved you to, but that i can never do. i am sorry i don't want to get hurt again, and most of all i don't want to hurt you.