As I sit here crying and regretting of letting him go
I start remembering all those times we just took it slow.
We were kids, wanting to know the world beyond this place we called home
Not knowing what and who we were about to become
And we helped each other see that change was good
And we cherished each other as much as we could.
At first we were friends, playing along to each others little games
Childish, i know. But the more we were ourselves around each other..
The more I fell in Love.
I became part of his family, i felt welcome for once.
But then I had to leave for a while and everything changed.
I came back thinking everything was gonna be the same.
He had changed just a little bit but to me it was alot
He didn't dress or act the same, but i knew he was the same old friend no matter what
So gave him the biggest hug i had ever given anyone and he gave me a kiss
I couldn't believe the boy i had missed was with me once again.
We continued our lives with laughs and giggles
but i was too shy too say what i felt inside
As I wipe another tear I remembered our first time.
It felt wrong but yet right because it was with him by my side.
Harder I had fallen and was afraid to lose him
And then one day i get a knock on my door.
He needed to tell me that we needed to split...
And then my heart began breaking and i felt like shit
He said we could be best friends but the love wasn't there for him.
I told him to leave and i promised i would get over him.
I remembered that night crying my self to sleep
not wanting to wake up the next morning
Because when i had him I had a reason to smile everyday
and since he is gone i had nothing to look forward to after that day
I start smiling and remembering that he came back to me two days after
As a stupid girl in love i took him back and it lasted a while
And both of us started separating slowly
thinking it was for the best to end and this time i didn't cry
I was looking forward to falling for another boy in this world full of surprises
But then i realized I had just lost the only one who had made me smile.
For everything i did i would thank him because he made me... become me.
Without a reason more tears fall out of my eyes.
and each one of them counted for how much i wanted him back
I had my chance ... because he came back again...
but then i let him go thinking something good was about to be mine.
But it was never good as him, now i regret it.
Everyday I see him pass not even with a "hi"
and every time that happens it hurts bad.. and i beg my self not to cry
And I don't, I stopped crying over our past a long time ago
But i still cant believe I made the biggest mistake on letting him go
