This is it

This is it
this is just what I needed
the fresh wounds to set off the inspiration
should I thank you?
or hate you?

Well. here I am again
trying to hold on
trying to find something worth the fight
exactly where I'd started out
I thought you were it
oh, how childish I've been
feelings are such a hassle

What a relief to be numb
the inspiration still comes freely
not like before
I can't enjoy it anymore
I just can't keep thanking you
thanking you for hurting me

No more, okay?
just no more of this
I can't stand it
I can't stand you
or myself anymore

This is it
this is just what I needed
I needed the pain
to realize just how much
how much I don't need you
Oh god, this is it.