Dear you,
There was a time a little while back, when I hated you with a passion that would burn inside of me every time I heard your name. I hated you for what you did to me, for what you did to your mother, for the way you always thought you were above everyone else. Seven months; I waited ... and I waited ... and yet, in the end what was I really waiting for? For you to call me and apologize for turning my life upside down? For you to kiss me and make everything alright again? I don\'t even know myself what I was waiting for. But I do know that was the longest wait of my life. When I heard that you\'d found someone else, just like that, I hated her too. I resented the fact that she got to have the one and only thing that gave my life meaning, while I hated you, because I was hurt. People say that time is the best cure for a broken heart. Time? Time and time again I thought about you, how were you getting on? Did she give you everything that I did? And thinking about that made me hate you even more. I told everyone how much I hated you for the way you treated me, for the way you shunned me but the one thing that I didn\'t tell anyone is that the main reason that I hated you was because I couldn\'t get over you. I felt pathetic, that\'s how I felt every time I allowed myself to think about you and how much I loved you. I cried so many times, and that made me feel even worse. But now seven months on, that day I saw you I hated you still, but after a while the passion returned when I looked into your eyes, when I heard your reasons and the way you spoke about your girlfriend how you hated her but you was too scared to finish with her. I allowed myself to get close to you again although you were still with the other girl, but I still felt that resentment at the bottom of my heart. But the point when that stopped was when I told you to dump her and you did. At that moment I had so much respect for you and now a few weeks on I\'ve permitted you to go further with me than anyone else has ever done; both emotionally and physically. And now at this point in time I have no regrets, and I can honestly say with my hand on my heart that I don\'t hate you anymore.
xxxx
PS: Live your life with no regrets, just lessons learned.
