Fist love first mistake

Now my life is over
pulled up like a four leaf clover
you told me that I was the only one
I believed that-now I have a son
lies I believed and the things that you wouldn't share
not knowing that you really didn't care
time and time again I confronted you about the things that were clear to me
you were unfaithful and you thought that I would never see
how could my first love be so untrue
never would I have been in this situation-only if I knew
can't you understand what you have done
my life is now on fire
you are no longer what my heart desires
the word hate couldn't describe how I feel about you
apologies, flowers could never do
we now share something that can't be taken away
I have to maintain day by day
Sometimes I let my anger get the best of me
I know I should because now I am living with H.I.V.
FIRST LOVE, LAST MISTAKE!!!!!!