When u.............

When u tell me you love me.
Do you mean it?
Or is it something you tell me, because u know i want 2 hear that. When u hold my hands, and we get so close and we kiss,
do u feel something in that kiss or am i just making up a feeling. Am i forcing myself to love u?
Am i forcing myself too much for a love i know will never come. I would just like 2 know if your feelings 4 me are true, cause you've shattered my heart once, and for some stupid reason my heart didn't let go of u and know I'm afraid I've gotten too attached to you again. The jealousy i feel when u look at another girl when you talk to her, and hug her, i can't control that rage i feel inside, on one side i want to leave you because this doubts are consuming me, the thoughts of you not loving me like u say.
But on the other side I've gotten so attached to you again, i can't picture myself without you.