So many unknown Qualities
So many lessons yet so many secure feelings
Lonely before
Lost and depressed before
Wanting more; needing more
Wanting one special person to love and adore
Wondering if our chance would ever happen again
wondering if our hearts would ever feel and mend
I learned to accept the fears of losing at love
I accepted what the man had given me from above
Trying to wear a smile
Trying to place all my daunted concerns into one pile
I do not want the hurt or the sadness
I do not want the heartache or bitterness
The pain, suffering, loneliness, torment
The careless and pensive heart that was so tragically unfortunate
The feelings of rejection, sorrow and worthlessness
The feelings if discomfort, disgrace and shamefulness
All were apart of me now, wondering if I deserved this due to my prior engagement
Wondering if I was enduring the agony and torture for another's amusement
I could not comprehend why my decision for happiness
Lead to a heart of disconsolate and incompleteness
I gave up!
Lost my ambition and hope!
If this was my life chosen and given from above
Then I had to accept all aspects it held and still cherish and love
Never losing faith, trust or belief
Praying that one day the pile of daunted concerns would reveal the kind, loving person underneath
Day by day as each daunted concern was lifted
I became more of myself and day by day the daunted concerns drifted
I became happy and blissful
I found my true laughter and smile
I found my ability to open my heart and accept all conditions and styles
I was honestly and truly gratified
And my heart and soul was finally satisfied....
... I found you.
To my new love, my one love, my life love.
Micheal Shane Fields
Angela O'Pry
