Secretly, I believe

I tore the head off that teddy bear
and threw the old shirt we shared in the wash
then I started to pretend I didn't care
...But I do

I threw the matching bracelet i had at you
and then changed my cell phone background
I acted like I was paying attention to what i was supposed to do
...But I wasn't

You know, I even had a good cry
I trash talked you for hours
and acted as if i wanted you to die
...But i don't

I have done everything I would normally do
I have avoided your eyes
but yet somehow,
i still believe your lies