Was it love or lust?

Was it love or lust?
or maybe it was a phase?
i thought i was in love,
but today i dont feel the same,

it was just a routine,
the relationship between you & me,
we were afraid to let go,
because we didnt want to be alone,

if i really loved you,
why am i seeing another guy?
if i really loved you,
than why did i leave your side?

if i really loved you,
why didnt i care?
if i really loved you,
why wasnt i ever there?

it is hard,
im not going to lie,
having no one to call,
or lay by my side,

but as the days go by,
these feelings continue to die,
no more longing for your kisses,
i no longer cry for you at night,

you hated me when i walked away,
but i know you'll thank me one day,
i hope one day you can see,
our love was never meant to be.