Pushing love away

I think that i could love again,
If i don't push them away.
Every time i start to fall,
I make my heart pay.

I'm trying my hardest,
To protect love from my heart.
Maybe the only way is,
To keep all boys apart.

I need to find a way,
It wont hurt so bad.
To fall in love again,
Then looses everything I had.

I end it all in the beginning,
Before feelings are involved.
We go our separate ways,
With no problems to be solved.

I end the situation,
Leaving my heart with just a crack.
Tears every night,
Of pain wanting you back.