That wonderful day that you lifted my heart from its deepest depression and you made me feel like the greatest ever. Only you could have done that to me. You made me feel wanted and you made me feel like I were the one that you wanted. When the words came out of your mouth that you wanted me to be yours I felt like there was no other feeling in the world that could make me feel better then I did at that very moment. I was just so giddy with excitement and no one would be able to wipe that smile off my face. Every where I went I would have a smile on.
But inside of my heart I knew that it wasn't going to last long with you for I was not able to hold such a great person. Someone that would deserve the best and I know that, that is not what I am. I know that you could do just so much better then me and I guess you knew that too. Since you are the one that ended it all. When I heard those words that me and you were no longer my heart was just broken. Like you toke me heart right out and stepped on it and there it lay on the floor right in front of me. I had to take everything that was inside my body to keep the tears that were forming inside of me not to come streaming down my pale cheeks. I just wonder to myself how could someone that I cared so much for to that to me. Just take my heart like it was theirs and hurt me so much. For you to know that you hurt me and you don't care makes it hurt even more. For me to know that you don't wonder about me to make sure that I am OK makes it hurt even more.
I know that I should be mad at you and that I should hate you with everything that I have left. But I can't, I just can't. I wish that I could be mad and just get over that fact. But I know that inside of me I still have feelings for you. I know that inside of me I just wish that you and me were still we. I just don't know how I can still have feelings for someone that hurt me so much. Someone that thought that he could just make me have hope so quick and make me forget about it even quicker. And for me to still have feelings for you is just crazy. I just wish that maybe my heart could be fixed and for me to move on. But I am not sure if I could do that when there was so much damage being caused.
