My Very Best Friend

I thought I knew what I meant to you, but I found out I was wrong
You didn't care, you replaced me with her and moved right along
I had lost a friend and didn't know what to do
But then someone came along and for some reason I stopped missing you
She was there when I needed someone, and we soon became very good friends
We talked at school and on the phone and hung out on the weekends
So many fun things we did
Going on walks with jellybeans, playing tennis, making movies, and who could forget about P.I.D
I had never had a friend like you
We always had so much fun..it didn't matter what we would do
We would get in little fights when something went wrong
No matter what we fighting about it never lasted long
Because I was her best friend, and she was mine
But little did we know we were running out of time
Things changed but they always ended up okay
Until something happened...everything changed one day
Before school was out we got in a fight
We tried to fix it but nothing made it right
So we stopped talking for what seemed like forever
What happened next I never wanted...never
I tried so hard to fix what was wrong I wouldn't let go
But you knew something that I didn't know
You knew that it wasn't alright..it had to end
Knew it was coming..I knew I was losing my best friend
I tried and tried so hard to make everything right
It was too late...you knew you had to end the fight
We knew it was coming and knew how much we would cry
But I still have to ask why couldn't I fix it...please tell me why
One night you put everything to an end
June 20th...I lost my very best friend
It was the worst thing I have ever gone through
Why did you let go..what did I do
I cried and I cried and tried to move on
Told myself you were already gone
I had never felt that hurt before and didn't know what to do
Still couldn't believe I lost you
I tried to move on and tried to forget
Do you miss me...do you ever regret
Things got a little better and I slowly moved on
I stopped thinking about it, but knew the pain wasn't completely gone
Summer started to quickly go by
We had made so many plans but now they were gone what happened..and why
I finally got better but there were still things I couldn't do
Hated to look at my bike because I always remember the time I crashed it into you
Did you ever think about that too
So I thought I was over you..I thought I had tried
But I should have known better...because I lied
Things were kind of okay
Then you talked to me that one night at the end of the day
You said you were sorry for what happened...you made me remember..you brought everything back
I had held it all in for so long but couldn't do it anymore..I cried and cried I thought I would never stop everything hurt and I finally cracked
So we talked about all the things that we went through..after you had done what you had to do
I knew how much it would hurt and how much I would cry when everything was over but I never knew how much I had missed you
It took you letting go to make me realize what a great best friend I had
I should of realized sooner though, I shouldn't have made things get so bad
I know it might have seemed like I was okay when you were gone but you will never know how much I missed you
I have to wonder if you missed me that much too
So it's not over...no not the end
I hope you know that no matter what happens, and even after everything we went through you have always, and will always be my very best friend!

*This poem is for my best friend Jenny. I know that we both went through alot of pain and I'm sorry for that because I know that some of the reason it got that bad was my fault and I'm so sorry. I don't know how I made it through the summer without you..I still can't believe it but things are good now. Just please know that I'm always here for you no matter what and that you will always be my very best friend...that never changed and it never will..