I'm scared:(

I'm so scared
I'm gonna push you away
its just what i do
its a game that i play

I won't let you in
i won't let you see
because if you do
you may not love me

I want you to stay
with all of my heart
i love you so much
i have from the start

I don't understand
why i do what i do
you may cause me pain
that i can't go through

I'll make you go
I'll end what we had
I'll make you think
you did something bad

But all along
it will be me
why i do this
I'm unable to see

I'm scared to love
especially you
because i know
you might love me too.