I Hate Loving You

I hate the way you can read my eyes
I hate the way you don't believe my lies
I wish you thought I was fine
So my heart would only be mine
I hate the way your smile warms me
I hate the way you act
I hate the way I fell for you
And I wish I could go back
I hate this side of me
That's weak and desperate for you
And I hate how I'd die for you
I wish you never knew me
And that you never cared
Because deep in my heart
I'm afraid, alone and scared