The hurt u left behind

Something seems to be missing these few days...
I feel something is not right...
I keep feeling restless...
Each day passed...
The more restless I feel...
Something is definitely missing in my life...

I think I know what is missing...
I don't seem to look forward for the next day like I used to...
Last time I always look forward for a new day...
Knowing something exciting is going to happen...
But now the feeling is lost...
The more I look forward for a new day...
The more it hurts...

I missed those times...
It kept my mind away from all the troubles in my life...
You seem to put smile face...
Each time I talked to you...
You made me laughed...
We shared the joys of our lives...
Oh how I wish those times could return again...

However there were times you made me cry...
But you made me feel better...
That time we talked...
The pain was just too much...
I can't take the pain no more...
I never want to hear those words again...

But I do want to talk to you again...
I know I can be naive...
I know I can be stupid at times...
How did I ever fall for you...
I wonder myself...
What do I feel for you...
I don't even know anymore...

Some say it is not worth the wait...
The pain you caused me can't be forgiven...
But I don't blame you caused you didn't know...
But you should have respected me as a girl...
Who seemed to be affected by those words...
Sometimes I feel that I am treated just a friend...
I may be a friend...
But I am still a girl...

There is a limit to what I can take...
And that day was the day when you went over the limit...
I never pictured a scenario like that...
Neither did I expect it to happen...

You caused me a lot of apprehension...
You caused me a lot of pain...
You caused me a lot of regret...
You caused me a lot of hurt...
You caused me a lot of sorrow...

But do I really blame you for it...
I don't even know...
I don't know anything anymore...
I feel like giving up all hopes...
But I can't...
It will mean forgetting you....

>it is not really a poem...but it simply how i feel...enjoy:)