Still in love with him

I fell in love for the first time at the age of 14
i made the biggest mistake of cheating on him
now i want him back,
i dont know what to say to him, or what to do when i see him
But i do know i still love him.
he was my first love, and always will be in my heart
i just wish he felt the same way.
i want to know what is in his mind, i want to know what he is thinking
but maybe someday, he will let me in
and we can build our trust for eachother again