It's too late!

I thought I've grown,
since the last relationship,
but I see that I'm making the same mistakes,
torn is my heart, once again,
it hurts to breathe,
the loneliness kills me,
courage less am I,
not able to realize the obvious,
painful it is,
my body's been taken from me,
and my emotions shut me down,
I don\'t want to move,
for I fear I can't stop,
I don't want to talk,
for the fear I might snap,
don't want to laugh,
fear for I might cry,
don't want to be alone,
fear I might die,
I'm too scared to call,
fear you might answer,
tell me those three words I dread to hear,
"It's too late!"