You Make Me Crazy!

Oh My God, You Make me so crazy!
One look from you and my mind goes hazy.
I never thought it would be this way,
There are so many things, to you, I must say.

But where do I start? I ask myself.
For this my heart must come off the shelf.
I’m blowing off the dust and trying to prepare,
‘For me, this part is what’s causing my fear.

You’ve come a long way, in my opinion of you.
Just a year ago, with you, I’d have nothing to do.
But right now I’d run off with you, anywhere.
This turnaround in my opinion is another source of my fear.

Before my opinion of you was quite harsh.
You made me so cautious, like walking a marsh.
Outward appearance all polite and pleasing,
But below, I felt it all was deceiving.

You knew what people wanted, so young yet so wise.
I could read it so clearly, when I looked in your eyes.
You knew how to manipulate, to get your latest thrill,
Having the innocent for lunch, like a whale eating krill.

But somewhere in the last year that has changed.
Sometimes I wander, “Am I being deranged?”
It happened over a time, yet seemed all so quick.
Wondering, “Am I only buying the trick?”

So if you wonder why I sometimes send off these mixed signals,
My past experiences can explain it, many I’ve recorded in journals.
When faced with a danger, animal instincts will surface.
In this situation of survival, fight or flight serves the purpose.

Now me, I’m becoming, quite tired of fighting,
It’s taking its toll, making flight more inviting.
I don’t want to feel those emotions, so corrosive.
Because letting them in, just seems too explosive.