One wish

Time seems to go so slowly and all I feel is agonizing burning pain from within days seem like weeks, weeks seem like years I guess I cant blame you or anyone for this pain just I wish it would go away, all just disappear. All I have are images playing over and over in my mind of someone else's arms around you, someone else touching your skin, someone else by your side. Its enough to bring anyone to there knees. And all I have is one wish for it all just to get out of my head. I wake up the images are there I go to sleep and I dream about them what do I do? I just want them gone I cant handle it anymore I honestly cant. Its taken every thing in me just to get through this one week im not sure I can last another I actually feel helpless no matter what I do its always there, this pain like a huge constant rush of adrenalin 24/7 making me shake, cry, I dont know whats wrong with me? I cant sleep I can barely eat iv never been like this so week and pathetic so low and depressed Its not even a physical pain yet its damage is so devastating...